This is it....

Maybe. We got the call from the adoption agency last night that we've been chosen for a little girl whose due date is March 30. Her mom's name is Sarah. Her situation is such that we're not really confident she will go through with the adoption because she has support. She has already named the little girl Elizabeth Anne! If you don't know, that name is familiar to our family, especially the Elizabeth name, which has been passed down through three generations and is also my middle name.
I was able to tell Brian the news before he got on a plane leaving the country and is now unreachable for about four days. He is as excited and anxious as I am. He even told the stranger sitting next to him on the plane that he was getting a little girl!
Sarah wants to meet me and Sam, and we're hoping to do that either today or tomorrow (Tuesday or Wednesday).
If she continues with the adoption, the agency is recommending we put Elizabeth in what's called interim care, where she will go straight from the hospital to a Christian foster home until N.C.'s seven day waiting period is over and she will truly be ours. Within those seven days, Sarah can change her mind and decide to keep her. It means we will not go to the hospital for her birth or meet Elizabeth until she is legally ours. At this point, I feel pretty safe with this and I appreciate that Bethany is trying to protect us. We will be disappointed and sad, but if Sarah wants her daughter, she should have her, and as a mother I wouldn't blame her one bit.
Sarah has asked that we keep some part of her name, so right now we're thinking her name will be Elizabeth Page. Hopefully Sarah will like that.
This has been a shocking, surreal few hours since the call last night and needless to say, I was awake most of the night, even with meds in me! Thanks to my friend Kryste (my adoption friend) who listened to me talk in circles last night until almost 10 p.m. I'm so blessed to have you in my life! And also thanks to my Aunt Barbara, who has volunteered to take Sam off my hands during the meeting when he finally can't stand staying still anymore.
I will keep you updated. Meanwhile, I'm not announcing this to the world, just family and close friends, so you won't see it on Facebook and try not to mention it to others. I don't feel like telling 50 people over and over again that we're not getting her.
I'm going to ask for your prayers for our meeting, especially that Sarah knows she is cared for, by us and the Lord. And then I ask you to pray for her as she makes this huge and painful decision. I hate knowing she is suffering, but I'm grateful that she cares enough for her daughter to care so much. It's a mixed blessing. And then finally, as I will probably be popping Xanax regularly for the next 4 to 5 weeks, please pray for my peace of mind and complete trust in the Lord and His outcome for this situation. I have been literally vibrating since the phone call last night and can't seem to shut my brain down. I hate feeling like this!
Thanks for the years of support and prayers during this adventure. Now it's going to get really tough and we will need them more than ever!