Speechless

I have found myself wandering the house stunned most of last week. It's sinking in a little bit, this crazy new reality. The cramping, nausea and constant hunger kind of make it obvious. Meanwhile, I'm trying to get excited about Elizabeth, and I keep getting sidetracked with the knowledge I'm going to be trying to bond with her all while likely uncomfortably pregnant. No nursing, no carrying. It's such an upheaval in so many plans....
Brian and I are excited, we are, but we're more scared than anything. Suddenly we're broke, have one more kid than we want, and I'm realizing I will never have a moment alone for at least two years. A dream come true.
The nights are the worst for both of us. We just lie awake panicking, a continent away from each other. I'm finally calming down some, but I need Brian here so badly. Suddenly I really need this deployment to be over, like yesterday. I can't believe we're having to deal with all this while he's so far away. I can't believe I had to tell him over the phone, TWICE in two weeks, that we was going to be a Daddy. We'll be in totally different mindsets by the time he gets home. This is when you depend on your spouse to hold you and tell you everything is going to be OK. And all we have is texting.
Some good news: Sarah was okay with the pregnancy, and even laughed (a very common reaction for some reason). She also said she was so excited about us and so committed to this adoption, which meant the world to me. I can't believe we're going to get Elizabeth!
Also, our house that's been on the market six months now had a successful open house today, and it looks like we may have an offer next week. We need that mortgage money freed up more than ever now.
PLEASE keep us in your prayers. Our lives will never be the same after this year and so far, we're not sure how we feel about that. =)